=orgasm denial: day 34=

 34 days since my last sissycummie. It's easy to remember because the last time Daddy let me make a cummy was on our anniversary, September 16th. He knows i really need to make one by now so he intensifies the teasing. Last nite
he had me sit on his lap through the entire second half of the Knicks basketball game fondling me. i buried my face in his shoulder practically the entire time whimpering. every time there was a time out he stopped touching me to change the channel in order to avoid the commercials! There was no way he was going to let me cum anyway. But still!!! i never hated commercial breaks so much in my life!

Later, in bed, he started up again. The only "relief" he gave me was to stick his fingers into my sissypuss, which let me leak some honey . Then he told me to pull my panties up, get on the floor like the slutty sissy faggot i am, & suck his cock. After that….he turned on his Kindle & read a Parker novel!

This morning he played with me some more. i thought he was going to let me cum he brought me so close…but no…he turned me over, bit me hard on the ass, then smacked me even harder & said "That bacon isn't going to fry itself." Because of the hormones i'm on, my clittie doesn't stay hard for long—actually it doesn't get hard at all. Just a bit swollen. But it softens right up to the size you see above within seconds of the cessation of direct manual stimulation. Then it leaks some sissie honey (ah relief!)  & then i sort of "forget about" it. Although, not entirely…

There's nothing stopping me from taking matters into my own hands…or fingers…except…well….i vowed to Daddy i wouldn't touch myself & he'd know if i did because i wouldn't respond immediately as i do now to his touch. Besides, it never feels the same when i do it as when Daddy does it, telling me what a sissy faggot i am, & other humiliating things. So i don't touch myself…or i do so only very fleetingly. Although i'm turned on a lot it isn't so intense that i have to do anything about it & though i can orgasm i really have to concentrate on the sensations & think sexy thoughts to bring myself over the edge. In other words, since i have to make a real effort to cum  it's so much easier not to... to resist the temptation to play with myself to the point of orgasm. By the time i got myself there, i'd have had too much time for second thoughts & regrets that i'd be breaking my vow to Daddy. His disappointment in my lack of obedience would be worse than any physical punishment he might mete out to me.

but, gosh…34 days is a long time!
when it's such a long time i really start to shed my inhibitions pretty rapidly. i'd do anything Daddy asked for a touch of his big rough hands and knowing fingers. Anything! Which, of course, he knows & why he likes to keep me like this… 

And paradoxically enough, i like being kept like this too!
Only a masochistic subby sissy slut would crave this kind of perpetual frustration & humiliation.
i'm absolutely hopeless.
i don't even try to resist my degradation any more.
The worse the better!