Saturday, August 18, 2018
Tuesday, August 14, 2018
Monday, August 13, 2018
Sunday, August 12, 2018
Thursday, August 9, 2018
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
Today I Ate A Dentist
The dentist laid me back
in his space age dentist’s chair
and had me open my mouth
really wide.
Wide, wider, widest, he said,
wide as you can go.
I heard the hinges of my jaw creak
and give way.
There,
is that wide the fuck enough for you,
you misogynistic sadist?
I said this with my eyes, seductively, of course.
The dentist lifted one clownish size 13
and put it into my mouth.
Then he pulled the other in after it.
He said goodbye to his assistant,
who he had chastely loved all these many years,
who he had chastely loved all these many years,
kissed her on the cheek,
and disappeared inside me
like he was descending into a moist manhole.
The dental assistant, a very nice Asian woman
named Pam, stared into my gaping mouth
with a look of utter astonishment.
From deep inside me we both heard
the dentist yodeling back,
“I’ve been waiting to do this all my life!
I've tried my very best.
I've tried my very best.
Tell my wife and kids goodbye
and good luck to you all!
That's all folks!"
and good luck to you all!
That's all folks!"
Monday, July 30, 2018
Friday, June 29, 2018
In bed, Daddy brought me right to the edge again.
So close to the edge I could see my orgasm roiling around down there right beneath the tips of my painted toes.
I could feel myself about to take the plunge deep down in my tummy.
I almost did it all on my own.
Spontaneously.
But Daddy kept it at bay.
Had me pull up my panties.
And suck his cock instead.
He laughed at me & called me a little bitch for allowing anyone to do that to me.
He's right, too.
I am a little bitch.
A little cocksucking bitch who'd let a guy who knows what he's doing do just about anything he wants with me...
Daddy knows what he's doing.
Ergo........
This picture, taken this morning, I'll probably regret posting, eventually, after I've been allowed to cum, which will be god knows when.
When I'm left horny like this, I act sluttier & sluttier & I tend to become more & more of an exhibitionist than usual.
By the way, I'm pretty excited in this photo.
That's as hard & as big & as erect as I'll ever get.
That's what 7 years of hormones will do to you.
It'll reduce your sex drive, make you impotent, shrivel your balls, & give you a sissyclit that no longer ejaculates anything, just leaks a little clear sticky stuff.
I get my weekly shot of sissy juice today.
This picture, taken this morning, I'll probably regret posting, eventually, after I've been allowed to cum, which will be god knows when.
When I'm left horny like this, I act sluttier & sluttier & I tend to become more & more of an exhibitionist than usual.
By the way, I'm pretty excited in this photo.
That's as hard & as big & as erect as I'll ever get.
That's what 7 years of hormones will do to you.
It'll reduce your sex drive, make you impotent, shrivel your balls, & give you a sissyclit that no longer ejaculates anything, just leaks a little clear sticky stuff.
I get my weekly shot of sissy juice today.
Tuesday, June 26, 2018
Ironically, it's really my husband who should be writing this sissy blog. And not for the reason husbands usually write sissy blogs, ie. because they're closet pansies furtively fantasizing about life as a girl (What I used to be, by the way). My husband is no sissy. He's a sissy admirer. He sends me emails like the one below pretty much every day. And while I know it's a byproduct of his cruising the web & perving other sissy cuties (which I admit does make me just a wee bit jealous sometimes) I know his emails are also a way to encourage & reinforce my own sissification.
And in fact, that's just what it does.
Daddy is a master of encouraging & reinforcing my sissification. If anything, I want to be be as much like the sissies he shows me in the pictures as possible. They are a way of seeing what Daddy likes in a sissy. And I so want to be what my Daddy likes in a sissy!!!
Moreover, it's encouraging to know that my Daddy really really likes sissies as opposed to genetic girls (or, as he calls them, "Accidental Girls," girls who were merely born girl whether they liked it or not, as opposed to "Intentional Girls" like me who really work at it because we want to be girls more than anything else in the world).
And my enjoyment of his emails are a case in point. There aren't a lot of genetic women who'd appreciate knowing their husband were perving other women on the internet much less looking forward to getting emails every day having this endless parade of cuties marched passed them with their husbands wolf-whistling commentary....but that's just another advantage a sissygirl has over a genetic girl.
We don't bust our men's balls when they act like...well, like men. We don't just let our men be MEN, we want them to be men! And men love us for it! That's what genetic (accidental) woman don't understand when they wonder what in the hell men see in us. They don't understand why a basically hetero-cisgender male would go for a "fake" girl like me. They dont understand that a woman is more than a cunt, more than a biological baby machine (even though, ironically, feminism often makes that very point.) A woman is.............well, one definition might be whatever a heterosexual man sexually desires. And often enough, that's an "intentional" girl....a sissygirl.
So, without further ado, the email Daddy sent me late last night and that I opened an hour or so ago....
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Hi babydoll,
You're just finishing up your shower and I just finished changing the taillite bulbs on the car.
Sometime tomorrow (today) I'll pass by O'Reilly's or Autozone and get a package of the correct bulbs so I have 'em next time I need one.............{edit: i deleted some sentences here because they're just about some general stuff we did today}
.....So
I think I have just about enough time to send you some sissy pix. I
got the actual pix earlier so it's just a question of putting them in
here in some sort of order and giving them some commentary. ;-)
First pic for this group is one of the most obvious truisms ever.
You never were a man and you certainly never, ever will be anything even resembling a man ever again.
You're a GIRL, and a SPECIAL and WONDERFUL girl at that!
Next pic is another truism and a statement of the obvious: Sissy girls make the best fuckdolls!
I'm SO glad that you're Daddy's little fucktoy!
Next pic is a positive reinforcement/motivational poster.
The
next pic is one that should be close to home for you; you have done a
wonderful job of emasculating yourself, with modern medicine and
clothing and attitude adjustments, etc.
And hopefully Daddy has helped you along the way.
She's
got delightful pink cupcake titties and a small (but much larger than
yours) bit of pink between her legs and she's definitely any fellow's
idea of a pretty girl. (Well, any open-minded and intelligent fellow)
The next pic is the almost obligatory British sissy girl.
This pretty sissy would also look remarkably like you, baby,except she's got that nasty foreskin. Yeccccchhh!
Those things are ugly, smelly and just plain NASTY, and I mean that in a BAD way!
The last pic is what Daddy tries to do all the time.
I hope I'm generally successful at it.
And as for the second part, well, you're Daddy's perfectly delicious, wonderfully slutty little fucktoy!
My prize possession...
xoxoxo ~Daddy
Monday, June 25, 2018
I know, I know
the sissy faggot shit on here
is just too few & far between.
It's way far back on here somewhere.
It's not worth your trouble.
It's too hard to find,
especially if you're horny.
And I'm interested in way too many other things.
Im not here to cater to your erection.
Go to Tumblr
or someplace.
Im married to a guy
& if you dont know how that is
I'll tell you:
it's a rare day that I don't get a cock shoved
into me somewhere.
And even if I dont get to cum
I'm on hormone replacement therapy
so I'm not especially horny
not here, anyway.
I get that way when Daddy's fingers
are diddling me between the legs
& he's telling me what a dirty pervy
little cumslut I am.
& other stuff.
stuff he's going to do to me
or have done to me.
then i whimper & whine & shake all over
& make a sissy cummy
with whats left between my legs (not much).
stuff he's going to do to me
or have done to me.
then i whimper & whine & shake all over
& make a sissy cummy
with whats left between my legs (not much).
that leaves my mind free to think about other things.
I suggest you find a Daddy, too.
Even a part-time one
in a pinch
will do.
If you're a Daddy, well,
you dont need me to tell you what to do.
Sunday, June 24, 2018
Friday, June 22, 2018
Thursday, June 21, 2018
Wednesday, June 20, 2018
Like Vulva in Thin Air
O bromeliad
young bromeliad
thy frankincense is mirth
pine cones never enter where saltshakers
stand guard
stop sign
stop sign
for raspberries are what it is worth
I have leaned far sideways
on flux barometers
stolen pokemon from spaghetti squash
robots are my progenitors in hazard
frozen peas will partway save us
you can see hello kitty in any dark
though I may be gone like mozambique
I am with you all the time
like stick figures
like tuna
like uncle bear
like vulva in thin air
christmas lights, my dear, aren't pudding
nor are they freeway traffic
nor all the miles to Jupiter & never back
like elephants without a paddle
they are brave
they are pansy
they are alcoholics with one less chair
Tuesday, June 19, 2018
Sunday, June 17, 2018
Tuesday, June 12, 2018
Two bunches of curtains enter from the left.
1st Curtain: Have you noticed?
2nd Curtain: Noticed what?
1st Curtain: Nothing.
2nd Curtain: Ah nothing! No. You?
3rd Curtain: Me neither.
Exit to Rear.
10 minutes pass.
Plastic cups of sand are served.
An announcement: Your stars have all been schmooed.
The End.
1st Curtain: Have you noticed?
2nd Curtain: Noticed what?
1st Curtain: Nothing.
2nd Curtain: Ah nothing! No. You?
3rd Curtain: Me neither.
Exit to Rear.
10 minutes pass.
Plastic cups of sand are served.
An announcement: Your stars have all been schmooed.
The End.
Monday, June 11, 2018
Sunday, June 10, 2018
There are people who don't ever want you to change & who wont accept
the most radical changes you undergo. They want to fix you forever in
their narrative, all too often as the villain. Run from these people.
Run as fast & as far as you can from them. They will murder you as certain as if they stuck a knife in your heart.
Friday, June 8, 2018
Thursday, June 7, 2018
Wednesday, June 6, 2018
Saturday, June 2, 2018
Dear Noam Chomsky--
What does all the world’s toilet paper have to do with the use of the past participle? And why is it like this in this jar all the time with 3 bright new pennies? Are you clear? Have you ever read John Fante? Killed a fly
What does all the world’s toilet paper have to do with the use of the past participle? And why is it like this in this jar all the time with 3 bright new pennies? Are you clear? Have you ever read John Fante? Killed a fly
with an elastic band? Sung Good King Wenceslaus
---with feeling?
I cooked a salmon tonight
half of it was perfect
the other half is swimming your way.
Yours truly, etc.
Wednesday, May 30, 2018
=Cat's Rules=
They gave me a piece of paper that told me to report to room
five. So that's what I did. It hadn't occurred to me yet to disobey them. It
just didn't seem like something that could be done. You followed orders
and things worked out for the best. That was the general idea you got.
In room five, there was an old man behind a desk and on the
desk a chessboard. On the chessboard were a couple of long teeth that looked to
be those of a wolf but that I knew to be human, human teeth being longer and
more wolf-like than you expected them to be before they were extracted. There were
also half a roll of breath mints and .38 detective special.
"We've found you guilty," the old man said,
bluntly getting to the point.
I felt as if I should have recognized him from somewhere,
but I couldn't quite pin down where.
"Guilty?" I said. This was unexpected.
"Guilty of what?"
"Of everything," he said.
"That's not possible. Not of everything. Who says
so?"
He pointed to a cushion on the floor beside the desk. On it
lay a gray cat, curled up. sound asleep. I hadn't noticed the cat before. I
felt like I should have recognize the cat, too, from somewhere,
but that's how it always is with cats and old men.
"You're kidding. How can a cat make that kind of
judgment?"
The old man shrugged. "You're living in a cat's world.
Surely you knew that. You chose this world, after all. Now you have to abide by
the rules. Cats have the final say. That's just the way it is."
"So now what?" I asked.
"The only question left is whether you'll pick up that
gun and do the right thing," he said.
I couldn't believe my ears. "What are you saying? That
I should kill myself?"
"We can't tell you what to do. Those are the rules. We
can only hope that you do the right thing," he said.
For a wild split-second, I felt like grabbing the gun and
shooting the old man and then shooting the cat, or vice-versa. What kind of
crazy world was this, anyway? And no matter what the old man said, I had no
memory at all of having chosen it. Who would? Unless the other choices were
even worse. I seemed to remember a world of cannibal gnomes and another of
space werewolves, among others even less desirable. Or was that just a
false-memory? My imagination again?
Looking back now, bad as they were, those worlds seemed
infinitely better than the one I chose where I was condemned by a cat and
expected to pick up a gun and shoot myself because I was guilty of everything.
Oh what the hell! If this was life they could keep it! On an
impulse, I picked up the gun, pressed the barrel to my left eye, and pulled the
trigger.
They say that at the moment of death your whole life flashes
before your eyes. It seemed like the bullet was taking forever to arrive. I was
at the train station, standing on the platform. The train was late, having
problems somewhere up the line; no one could explain more. I was between
here and there. It was no big deal. Nothing much had changed at all. I had
time to do a lot of thinking. Beside me, someone asked hopefully, "Is that
the train?" I looked up. I looked up.
Monday, May 28, 2018
I once had a friend—in my pre-transition phase, unfortunately—who was a martial artist. And I mean a real martial artist, not one of those Bruce Lee wannabes with a black belt from some strip mall martial arts school, who taught hand-to-hand combat to military personnel. For a while, he was coming over to my house every week & he'd futilely try to teach me a few things but really he was practicing some stuff of his own on me. He'd encourage me to "really fight back" & I did my best to oblige him but I wasn't much of a fighter & he'd quickly wrap me up helplessly in some submission hold that I could hardly not think of as vaguely sexual. I doubt he was thinking of it that way. But who knows? If he was, there was a missed opportunity there.
Anyway, one day he came over and wanted to demonstrate/practice a choke hold he'd been adapting. A choke-hold, he explained, doesn't literally choke you. Choke-hold is kind of a misnomer. What a choke-hold actually does is cut off the blood supply to your brain and, if executed properly, causes you to pass out. He told me that he would do it slowly and when I felt myself blacking out to tap him on the forearm. He stood behind me, positioned his arm so that my throat was cradled in the inside crook of his elbow, lifted me onto my toes, and proceeded to slowly squeeze. Slowly…he said, but within a second or two, I saw black spots in front of my eyes & felt my vision darkening & my knees buckling. It was absolutely painless. It was like falling asleep precipitously, like maybe after taking way too many Xanax. I was so taken by surprise that I nearly didn't have time to tap his forearm…
Ive thought about that episode many times since. Ive replayed it again & again in my mind. It seems the perfect way to die. An absolutely dreamy way to die. Swift, painless, plunged into darkness, unconscious before you even know whats happening. I often fantasize about it sexually. About being killed like that. I'm wearing sexy lingerie and the guy doing it has his cock up my ass and he's fucking me as he works his arm under my chin. There's no tapping his forearm. He doesn't intend to let go. He quickly tightens his arm and I'm like a rabbit in a snare. It's too late before I even think to raise a hand. I'd like to die like that, brain-starved, cock-stuffed, as he spurts inside me, dead before he drops me to the floor.
Is that weird? I guess its weird. I don't hear too many people fantasizing about anything like this. Maybe they do and just don't say it. It's not the kind of thing that ordinarily comes up in conversation. Too bad. Conversations would be a lot more interesting if they did. I'd be more inclined to join them instead of just remaining silent.
Anyway, one day he came over and wanted to demonstrate/practice a choke hold he'd been adapting. A choke-hold, he explained, doesn't literally choke you. Choke-hold is kind of a misnomer. What a choke-hold actually does is cut off the blood supply to your brain and, if executed properly, causes you to pass out. He told me that he would do it slowly and when I felt myself blacking out to tap him on the forearm. He stood behind me, positioned his arm so that my throat was cradled in the inside crook of his elbow, lifted me onto my toes, and proceeded to slowly squeeze. Slowly…he said, but within a second or two, I saw black spots in front of my eyes & felt my vision darkening & my knees buckling. It was absolutely painless. It was like falling asleep precipitously, like maybe after taking way too many Xanax. I was so taken by surprise that I nearly didn't have time to tap his forearm…
Ive thought about that episode many times since. Ive replayed it again & again in my mind. It seems the perfect way to die. An absolutely dreamy way to die. Swift, painless, plunged into darkness, unconscious before you even know whats happening. I often fantasize about it sexually. About being killed like that. I'm wearing sexy lingerie and the guy doing it has his cock up my ass and he's fucking me as he works his arm under my chin. There's no tapping his forearm. He doesn't intend to let go. He quickly tightens his arm and I'm like a rabbit in a snare. It's too late before I even think to raise a hand. I'd like to die like that, brain-starved, cock-stuffed, as he spurts inside me, dead before he drops me to the floor.
Is that weird? I guess its weird. I don't hear too many people fantasizing about anything like this. Maybe they do and just don't say it. It's not the kind of thing that ordinarily comes up in conversation. Too bad. Conversations would be a lot more interesting if they did. I'd be more inclined to join them instead of just remaining silent.
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