Me, Remembered as a Totem Pole
I am shivering in a necktie
I am shivering in a necktie
I am swallowing something cold & slippery
I am watching you
walk among the artichokes
so alone
so alone
it's awful
it's awful
I am standing before a mirror
with a flashlight under my chin
flicking it on & off
on & off
scaring myself
I am telling myself I can’t take it anymore
I am breaking plates
on a concrete floor
dropping them one after another
from a long way off—
from a long way off—
I don’t know why
I have lost my car keys
I am brushing my teeth with a plastic razor
I am sitting in a small blue boat
far out at sea
in rocky water
No, I'm sitting in a small blue boat
in the middle of my kitchen floor
that buckles beneath me
like rocky water
There is an oar in my hands but it's useless
it is not even an oar
it's the first line of this poem
I am sitting in a small blue boat
far out at sea
in rocky water
No, I'm sitting in a small blue boat
in the middle of my kitchen floor
that buckles beneath me
like rocky water
There is an oar in my hands but it's useless
it is not even an oar
it's the first line of this poem
I don’t know where the cat goes in the night
what she’s hunting
or if she ever finds it
but when she comes for me in the morning
she always seems surprised to see I’m still here
& indicates
I should be, too
I should be, too
I've stopped waiting for the planes overhead
the ladder to drop
the trap door to open
the clowns, the dancing pomeranians
This is what is called surviving
This is the easy part
The problem is how do you survive
all the continual surviving?
It's a lot like giving up hope
Hope itself, I mean
is packing a suitcase like a parachute
& walking out the door
into loneliness
into space
You'll see.
It all tastes like cherries in the end.
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