“I’ve got no more,” she says, and turns her cup upside down
to show me. She’s sitting up in bed, reading, where she once had sex with my
father. Her eyes catch her reflection in the mirror on the dresser across the
room. “Not a drop left. See?”
“But, Mom, I’m thirsty.”
“Go ask your father.”
He’s sitting there in his easy chair, looking wise and
benevolent, but straight through me, at the TV. He seems to know why I’m here already, doesn’t say a word,
just mutely turns his cup upside down without taking his eyes from the
television, a really elegant gesture.
I’m so distraught, so distraught I’m no longer even thirsty.
But what can I do?
I run away from home, but after a while I realize the
obvious: there’s nowhere to go. So I return home. I see our house in the
distance, over the hill. No one has come after me. They knew I’d have to come
back. Where else could I possibly
go? I feel like I’ve dropped a burden I didn’t even know I was carrying,
lighter somehow, like I could walk without bending the grass, freer, like it
never really mattered.
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