It all came down to nothing & of the nothing, there is very little left. –Nicanor Parra

You wanted to meet as “just friends,” or so you claimed, but it must be done in ultra-secrecy. Out of your concern, so you said (without quite saying it), that I might somehow contaminate and/or compromise the rest of your “normal” life. And somehow I’m not supposed to feel hurt and insulted, both by your lack of trust in me and by your shame to be with me? By the implication that I’m unworthy of befriending as any ordinary person might be. I’m no math-whiz but even I know that something about all this simply doesn’t add up; and even if you could fudge the numbers any more than you already have, it certainly doesn’t add up to anything positive. And so that’s all. Goodbye.